Hello, my dear Bookaholics! I just popped in to celebrate with you my first year as a book-blogger in this amazing, supportive, friendly and positive community!
I am not doing any review today, or telling you guys any story, but I’m just giving you some good news and vibes. However, in order to keep the suspense a little bit, I’ll start with the good vibes and I’ll spill here some emotional stuff, simply because I need to.
So this has been the best year of my life so far, even with the whole pandemic situation considered. And instead of looking at the negative things that the pandemic has fed all of us with, I decided to tell you why I think that this year was my best one yet. Here’s a small list:
- I have made myself this little job. I don’t think I ever worked harder for something that didn’t get me much money right away. Except of this blog. I knew from the very start that it wasn’t going to get me to hundreds of thousands of dollars in a year. Or two. Or three. Or maybe even ten. Because most people are way too busy living their monotonous life, going to their monotonous job, spending their free time in the most boring and monotonous ways possible (like scrolling through social media, watching useless videos on YouTube, watching useless TV Shows that will never teach them anything but they just help eating time away) to pay attention to – what they call – “losers” like me, who spend their free time reading, writing, and sharing this stuff with the world, even though the world is less than interested. But I took this engagement anyways, because at that time I had nothing better to do with my spare time anyway. And even after I realised that I had something better to do with my time, I didn’t give up on this baby. Because by that point, I started getting some following, I realised that people actually are interested in what I have to say. So I thought I had no reason to stop. Which is why I started clearing my schedule just to make time and write consistently here. And even though I didn’t even get close to a hundred dollars, I’m still not giving up on this. Because I reached a level where money doesn’t motivate me (at least when I’m talking about my blog, that is) and I am simply doing it out of pure passion.
- I have developed myself in every possible way. The old Patry wouldn’t even have been here now, because she would be somewhere “living la vida loca”, getting stuck in teenage love dramas, crying over ugly and/or stupid boys – on whom she’s had crushes for periods of time ranging from 10-15 minutes to 3 years– and needing a therapist after her latest failure at this chapter. ‘Cause she felt that she needed someone else to make her happy. And that’s the biggest difference. The new me has come to realise (finally) that I am the only one who can make me happy. My happiness depends only on myself, and not on anybody else. And this little realisation lead to the next necessary step: building my confidence. I was so goddamn insecure about myself before. I always felt that something was wrong with the way I looked, dressed, acted, talked. But the only thing that was wrong with that was everyone who kept judging me for these things. After being hit by how sad and boring their lives were, I understood that they needed to talk about spicy stuff, like me. And that’s when I began to rise, shine and glow just to give them a good show. :)) I also developed my intelligence, general knowledge, picked up new skills, started studying harder and started focusing on myself more. Because I knew I deserved it and if I didn’t offer it to myself, then no-one ever will. I advise you to do the same. It’ll make you so much happier. :)) Besides, I got really interested in ways of increasing productivity, effective learning and time management. The old me would have scrolled through Instagram for hours on end. The new me doesn’t afford that “luxury” anymore, since every minute in my life is now scheduled. Well, every minute except weekends and parties/excursions. 🙂 On weekends, I am a “normal” teenager, I go to sleep at 2-3 a.m. instead of 21:30-22:00 p.m., wake up at 10 a.m. instead of 4:30-5:00 a.m. (as it would be usual for me) and I’m binge-watching crime/ horror/ smart TV Shows/movies, or reading, or simply enjoying the night, the silence and myself.
- I got to finish my novel and it will soon be published. Ah, yes, the damned quarantine, when everyone was getting bored and therefore making Tik-Tok accounts, hoping it would make it easier for them to cope with the isolation. However, I found it easy to cope with it from the very start. Funny thing is, I am a really extroverted person. But I found I can enjoy my own presence more than I enjoy some certain people’s. So I took advantage of the quarantine and finsihed writing my novel, I also caught up with things I missed in school, enrolled in lots of webinars on the subject of personal development and writing, I even offered a small Creative Writing course, in which I talked about what I learned from the “Big Guys” of today’s literature. It was really fun for me and I never saw how you could get bored and spend half of your day on Tik-Tok, when you can spend time with yourself and learn how to be content with it.
- I’ve read more books than I would normally have in one year. 35 books during the quarantine, and 23 others after it. A record even for me :))
And, before I finish, I have to say something about the good news, right? 🙂 Well, it’s about my novel. I’m going to launch in less than 2 weeks and I am extreeeemely happy and I can’t wait until it’s OUUUUTTTT!!! YEEE-HAAAW =)))
LOL (Lots Of Love), ♡